Soooooo many thoughts all the time…
The point of this one was actually to ramble about Lune, since it’s her birthday today, but also I feel like I need to clear my head a bit before I start doing work for the day. It helped last night, but instead of writing about myself, I did some diary prompts for Hollyhock.
8 years! It’s really wild to think about, honestly. Like, I know Emmy and co. are older than her, but even just the individual milestone is a lot. Within those 8 years Lune has managed to attract all kinds of bullshit towards me, next to, ironically enough, Angie. I talked about this pretty comprehensively in the Harmonia family shrine I made a while ago, but people really get upset over shipping, especially if you’re having fun shipping an oc with a canon character instead of shipping that canon character with a person’s preferred partner.
Shipping nonsense is exhausting, and it’s one of the reasons I really, really wish I could ditch Twitter, if it wasn’t for wonderful artists who I find and work with from there. It’s about who kissing who is most attractive and marketable, or whatever. Like at this point, after 8 years, the Harmonias are barely a ‘ship’ to me – they’re just a family, a trio in love that goes beyond surface level. But of course, that doesn’t matter to everyone else.
Maybe I’m just out of touch. The rapid rise of the yume community in pokemon oc circles wouldn’t be concerning if I didn’t have to see people being paggro to each other about ‘no doubles’ like its 2015 kinnie Tumblr. Just block people, there’s no need to invalidate others to keep yourself afloat, yaknow? Better yet, why can’t people start fangirl/boy armies like we did in 2011, where wanting to smooch the same character was a point of bonding instead of division?
Ok, phew. That’s a lot off my chest! Otherwise, things have been a bit harder – the first week post-op was really, really good, but it was just a fakeout. I’ve been feeling cruddy for this whole week with pain and dissociation. I worry I’ll have to start taking the really heavy pain meds, which I’ve been avoiding because they generally make me nonfunctional. I know recovery isn’t linear, but god, I wish it was. It’s hard to do much of anything and it’s really frustrating!
I have some work work to do now, but maybe afterwards I’ll make a new 3DS theme and boot up AC:NL again… it’s been a week, I bet my villagers miss me.
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