Heads up, this isn’t a fun one – CWs within for talk of dissociation and derealization. And more typos than normal, probably.
Fucked up that it’s the 5th already, huh? I blinked and July seemed to fly by… which has become an increasing problem.
I’m not sure why it started, but I’ve been having dissociative episodes lasting entire days, almost always prompted by an overly-vivid dream/nightmare beforehand. It feels like I’m not really ‘waking up’ from these at all. It’s to the point where I’m forgetting that I did things I just did, like my voice and body are foreign – it’s really not fun and upsetting, to say the least. Because of that my general productivity has really taken a hit and I’m not able to do work or the things I enjoy, which includes working on this website.
A friend suggested it may be possible menopausal stuff coming to bite my ass after a medication conflict nightmare, so I’m just hoping I can see SOMEONE about this soon. This diary is partially me trying to remember to do that on Monday, lol.
Though on a positive note – I’ve really gotten back into The Sims 4 again, and it’s nice. I feel like people in the small microcommunity of pokemon and sims fans missed me, I’ve gotten nice messages and they’re helping me keep my grip while all this else is going on (as cheesy as that sounds).
I’m building an UA save there, I can’t wait to see where it goes.
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